I hate everything about you

I hate everything about you
And everything that you’ve put me through
Everything has now changed
Life is not a movie, it’s not arranged
For you, I’ve shed my tears
These answers I find so unclear
You broke my heart
And tore the person that loved you apart
But you’ve come back
All I know is that it’s just another act
This time I won’t be stupid
To believe any of your dumb shits
Now this girl is stronger than before
No, you won’t see those tears in her eyes anymore
Truly and deeply, I’m still hurt inside
Don’t worry, the pain I’ll be able to abide
On the other hand, I hate myself
It’s like I’m in need of help
I hate the way that I need you like I do now
Even though it’s not her fault but I hate her too somehow
Thanks for hurting me
Most of all, thanks for the those endless memories
Things that were left undiscovered
Just leaves me here to only wonder
Out of your mouth are harsh words
But I’ve plugged my ears so nothing of you could be heard
Deceiving and hard to believe I know
When will I be able to let you go?